Today Feels Heavy

Today marks 5 years since my mom's cancer diagnosis. I feel a little numb. All the time that's passed feels surreal. I very clearly remember her voice breaking slightly as she told us the news in a mid-day meeting she gathered us to during the week. At diagnosis time, I was scared and unsure. It's interesting what changes in a few years. I had no idea what she'd go through and that we'd lose her. I wish I could go back in time and step into that day, just not with that I know now or maybe with what I know. I remember crying and praying for her. If I could be in that spot with her now, I'd hold her hand, put my head on her shoulder, and promise her that I'd be there every step of the way, because that's what I did.